On August 31st–Friday at 5:00; There I sat in the women’s health care center waiting room joyfully texting my friends funny pinterest pictures. We joked that it was mammogram happy hour. Who gets mammograms at 5:00 on a Friday? If one does, they should offer a glass of wine or a hot totty. I even took a vicodine (saved from previous procedures) just so I didn’t have to feel the pure joy of my breasts being squished into pancakes between two plates. There the day came and went.
Wednesday, September 5th. I get a phone call from the hospital. They need me to go back for more pictures.
Friday, September 7th. I go back for my second mammogram. The women says that the radiologist wants to see me. I saw it in his eyes. He knew I had cancer–I could tell. That’s when I knew. I didn’t want to believe it and it wasn’t official but I knew. That night laying in bed I cried, I shook, I almost hyperventilated.
Friday September 14th–Biopsy
They all knew too. The biopsy surgeon, the nurses, the techs. I could see it in all their eyes. I think when you do this enough you know what cancer looks like. I saw the picture of my biopsy–it didn’t look good. It looked like a bent worm, not like a healthy cell. Then the waiting for the call where time stood still. The day I officially found out what I already knew.
After my MRI they called me back for an Ultrasound on my right breast–the good one. I went with my mom and I was nervous. The tech looked for a long time–when she left the room to get the radiologist tears just started pouring down my face. I prayed to God and told him that I couldn’t handle any more bad news. The radiologist walked in and said “How are you?” At first I answered good. Then, I told her actually I’m not good, I’m about ready to have a breakdown. She then looked and looked and pressed on my right breast while I had tears running down my face. Finally, she said what I was hoping to hear; this all looks like normal tissue. I cried again, but this time tears of relief and happiness.
- What to expect during your first mammogram (kevinmd.com)
- Dense Breasts and Breast Cancer Risk (everydayhealth.com)