Category Archives: Lumpectomy

T-388 days October 25,2012–Post op appointment

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English: pink ribbon

English: pink ribbon (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Mom and I drove to Dr. Kulick’s office.  We walked in and went through the typical routine of a doctors appointment.  She walked in and I wanted to give her a hug.  She looked at the scar on my breast from the surgery and the scar on my arm from the port placement.  She was very satisfied with how they were healing and how they looked.  We talked about my results and she said how great it was.  I asked her about the onco test simply because I was so thrilled about the thought of not getting chemotherapy.  That’s when my step became a little heavier and my heart dropped a bit; when she said I won’t be taking the onco type test.  She then went on to explain that since I am Her2 positive that I don’t qualify for the Onco test and am automatically a candidate for chemotherapy.  The fact that I am Her2 positive definitely makes my breast cancer more serious although the tumor was small and there wasn’t even any cancer in my lymph nodes.  Basically the fact that I am Her2 positive makes my risk of getting cancer anywhere in my body again 35% where as women who have breast cancer with Her2 negative have a 12% chance of getting cancer again.  Thus, there is a chance that the cancer could have a micro metastasized somewhere else in my body that would not be picked up by any tests.  The chemotherapy would most likely take care of any cancer that may have jumped my lymph nodes and set up shop somewhere else in my body.  I am comforted in knowing that Dr. Kulick did a fabulous job on me–my scar is minimal, she was able to remove my lymph nodes from the same incision where she removed the tumor, thus having one less scar to heal.  The port insertion continues to be more bothersome then  I ever thought would be, but she was not concerned about that and said it was all very normal.

After the visit with Dr. Kulick my mom and I went upstairs to visit my Nurse Angel Karen.  I wanted my mom to meet her.  As always when I see her I am filled with such a sense of comfort.  This was a good day and I am blessed with so many fabulous people in my life.

T-396 days Lumpectomy

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My alarm goes off at 6:00 a.m.  I’m not nervous.  I’m eagerly calm.  I want this cancer out of me, all of it.  I put on my comfy clothes and get ready for the long drive to Chelsea.  I can’t imagine going here without Travis, my mom and dad are meeting us.

It’s still dark when we arrive.  I head back for the first step of the surgery.  Before the surgery, they put a guide wire in me to lead my surgeon right to where the tumor is located.  I go into my most favorite machine nowadays; the mammogram machine, and they take many pictures marking me with markers so they know where the radiologist should insert the wire.  The radiologist walks in, we both say a warm hello and are surprised we already know one another.  It is the same radiologist that spoke to me on the day of my ultrasound.  It was comforting to have the same person; another sign that God was working his wonder.  She numbs my breast and then inserts a thin silver wire into my breast, more pictures are taken to verify it is in the correct position.  It is, I look down and see what looks like a thin antenna coming out of my breast.  I feel like something out of Star Trek.  They then cover it up with gauze and tape me so that I don’t knock it out of position.

Now I am transported into a van to the hospital for the surgery and I see all of the people I love sitting in the lobby.  They ensure that they will be able to visit me soon.  I get wheeled back to the surgery room where I begin to see familiar face; Gabriella’s ENT surgeon, my anethsiologist from my hernia surgery, seeing people I somewhat knew was nice.  I laid there answering questions, getting prepped up; feeling incredibly calm. Travis and the pastor came back first.  A prayer was said; it was wonderful to have that moment before my surgery.  Next, my parents came back.  I could tell they were all nervous, I think they were all more nervous then me.  We all  just sat and talked about this and that, things were delayed for awhile.  Finally, my surgeon came back and said hello to everyone and reviewed what was going to be done.  It was time to say goodbye to everyone, many kisses and tears.  Not one part of me was nervous, I could feel everyone’s prayers and thoughts lifting me up, I could feel the presence of God, I could feel the love of my family and ALL of it gave me tremendous comfort and peace……then I drifted off to sleep.

I hear voices and beeps, I open my eyes and see a nurse.  She says “How are you feeling?”  I ask if I am all done and if everything went well and she said yes.  Tears started pouring down my face. Tears of joy and relief. Travis comes back with the nurse.  We both start crying together.  He tells me that my surgeon thinks that my lymph nodes were healthy and that she got all of the cancer out.  I keep crying.  I hope, I believe, I think that all of the cancer is out of my breast.  I want to find my surgeon and give her a huge hug and tell her how much I appreciate her amazing work.

Eventually we head home and I am comforted with a incredibly special night with all of my family, my sister Alethea and Isla, my mom and dad, Julie, my kids, Travis, Travis’ kids. My kids come in with bouquets of flowers and kit kats and cards.  I can see the relief on their faces knowing that I am ok.  So many people that I love were all in my house  together, making dinner, eating together, laughing, talking; the sounds of family. I just sat there and smiled thinking that I would have many more years of those special moments.