Who am I now?
Where did I go?
Cancer arrived and like a strong wind blew me away, parts of me scattered
Uninvited and unwelcome
Pieces thrown about
Hair in hibernation
Who is that in the reflection?
An unrecognizable shell
A flicker of who I once was I see in a photo
Scattered mind A flicker of who I once was I see in a photo
I already said that? Right, I forgot….scattered mind
Achy bones, creek and ache. Bones that once ran, leaped and jumped.
Body like a jar of molasses, slow and thick yearning for her spry, limber flexibility
Tingly fingers and upset stomach that waltz harmoniously
Broken drippy faucet of tears; drip, drip, drip
38 going on 55
Pop, pop, pop, goes every pill in my mouth
Heavy lids, heavy steps pace the day a step ahead of the exhaustion that will befall
Tired, so tired
Where did I go? I miss her, I call for her, I cry for her,
When will she come back? Will she ever come back? Did Cancer take her forever?
I want me